There have been times when I have screamed at the top of my lungs to an empty beach “why me? What have we done to you? Why do I have to pout up with all this shit?”. There have been times when I have had to lock myself in the loo to hide the tears from my boys, haven’t they seen enough suffering in their short lives?
Then I read a blog like Ashley’s and it reminds me that life is all about choices, bot just the ones we actively chose to make, but the ones we chose to ignore too. It is my choice to make the most out of each and every day, to believe the universe will provide and that we live everyday, not survive it, but enjoy it. That I am going to chose joy. That I am going to embrace my family and journey with them ever forward and yes I might be scared, but I will always travel my path with dignity, my husband and boys by my side and a heart filled with optimism and love.
I am going to try and live in the hear and now and watch my children with their joyous abandon and let its infectiousness rub off on me. I am going to make time for my husband and our marriage and I am going to enjoy reclaiming some me time and finding some inner peace amongst the white noise of everyday life. I am going to do once thing everyday and do it well.
I am choosing joy.
With proud thanksgiving, a mother for her children, England mourns for her dead across the sea. Flesh of her flesh they were, spirit of her spirit, Fallen in the cause of the free. Solemn the drums thrill; Death august and royal Sings sorrow up into immortal spheres, There is music in the midst of desolation more »
I am so grateful to Interflora who sent be a bouquet of flowers just because they like my blog. They even matched them to the blog colours too. I am grateful that it is my mums 67th Birthday today, after her hospitalisation and all that came with it earlier in the year, I didn’t think more »
I am grateful for my wonderful boys, who came with me to the car boot sale and really behaved in this heat (yes I really am that pale). We are grateful for cool paddling pools in hot weather. We are grateful for plentiful elderflowers and have made yummy cordial. My beautiful rambling rose, which is more »
I talked earlier in the week about the values I am trying to instill in to my children and this week we have been discussing kindness. Fellow Blogger Suzie at New Day New Lesson has a kindness club, so we have been talking about her weekly initiatives. What is kindness and why it is important? more »
I spent a wonderful day yesterday with my Mum. For the first time since she was in hospital in March we spend the morning pottering round our local shops (yes I took and she filled my shopping trolley). We then came back to themadhouse and spent an afternoon as a family. So I thought a more »
Firstly an update on the shouting. We have had a few relapses, but it is actually getting easier. I have noticed a real difference, it is not my first reaction a situation. Also the fact that I have been unwell has meant that the volume button has had to be turned down with the boys more »
What are we celebrating today?, Who was valentine? Well wikipedia says He was arrested and imprisoned upon being caught marrying Christian couples and otherwise aiding Christians who were at the time being persecuted by Claudius in Rome. Helping Christians at this time was considered a crime. Claudius took a liking to this prisoner — until more »
Maxi getting excited over playing with his Fun Domino’s (a christmas present) I am grateful: My wonderful Saturday lie ins and being woken by my boys with a cup of tea. Living nearby the sea, I love the ever changing landscape the sea brings. The crocus’ just poking out their green tips in next more »
Today is traditionally also know as “Stir it up” Sunday Stir up, we beseech thee, O Lord, the wills of thy faithful people; That they, plenteously bringing forth the fruit of good works, may of thee be plenteously rewarded; Through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen. So as you stir three times each (east to west more »
They went with songs to the battle, they were young. Straight of limb, true of eyes, steady and aglow. They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted, They fell with their faces to the foe. They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old: Age shall not weary them, nor the more »
For every dark night, there is a brighter day The clocks “fell” back last night (spring forward, fall back is the only way I remember this) and this means that the evenings will be darker earlier and this has been something I have not been looking forward to in the slightest. One of the times more »
Being broke is different to being poor Yep we have no money, but we are not poor. We have each other, we have our health, we have hearts filled with love. We live in a first world country with free health care and benefits. If everything went belly up, we could survive. We will have more »
By perseverance the snail reached the ark. Charles Haddon Spurgeon I thought that this was very apt this week, as we have been soldiering on regardless with MiniMad and his issues with attending Preschool. It has been a hard and heartbreaking week and many afternoons I have come home and had a good sob about more »
I Experience Love Wherever I go Love is everywhere and I am loving and lovable. Loving people fill my life, and I find myself easily expressing love to others. I guess that this being only the second week of school for MaxiMad, I was reminiscing about my early days of schooling and it brought to more »
I am Flexible and Flowing I am open to the new and changing. Every moment presents a wonderful new opportunity to become more of who I am. I flow with life easily and effortlessly. This is true for me and many other mothers of children this week, as it will have been the first week of more »
I Release all CriticismI only give out that I wish to receive in returnMy love and acceptance of others is mirrored to me in every moment I am a great one for believing in karma, what goes around comes around. I also believe that the old adage of “blame where blame is due” doesn’t always more »
The sun is shining again this wonderful Sunday morning and the birds are chirping. It is a glorious morning. I find it much easier to cope with the early wakings that two energetic boys bring, when the morning is a beautiful as it is today. We have already hung the washing on the line, fed more »
It is a beautiful morning here, after what seems like weeks of rain and cloudy skys, the sun is shinning brightly. The MiniMads woke me bright and early this morning and Sundays are MadDads lie in, so I was somewhat grumpy at being woke as early as I was, that is until I came downstairs more »