There have been times when I have screamed at the top of my lungs to an empty beach “why me? What have we done to you? Why do I have to pout up with all this shit?”. There have been times when I have had to lock myself in the loo to hide the tears from my boys, haven’t they seen enough suffering in their short lives?
Then I read a blog like Ashley’s and it reminds me that life is all about choices, bot just the ones we actively chose to make, but the ones we chose to ignore too. It is my choice to make the most out of each and every day, to believe the universe will provide and that we live everyday, not survive it, but enjoy it. That I am going to chose joy. That I am going to embrace my family and journey with them ever forward and yes I might be scared, but I will always travel my path with dignity, my husband and boys by my side and a heart filled with optimism and love.
I am going to try and live in the hear and now and watch my children with their joyous abandon and let its infectiousness rub off on me. I am going to make time for my husband and our marriage and I am going to enjoy reclaiming some me time and finding some inner peace amongst the white noise of everyday life. I am going to do once thing everyday and do it well.
I am choosing joy.
With proud thanksgiving, a mother for her children, England mourns for her dead across the sea. Flesh of her flesh they were, spirit of her spirit, Fallen in the cause of the free. Solemn the drums thrill; Death august and royal Sings sorrow up into immortal spheres, There is music in the midst of desolation more »
I am so grateful to Interflora who sent be a bouquet of flowers just because they like my blog. They even matched them to the blog colours too. I am grateful that it is my mums 67th Birthday today, after her hospitalisation and all that came with it earlier in the year, I didn’t think more »
I am grateful for my wonderful boys, who came with me to the car boot sale and really behaved in this heat (yes I really am that pale). We are grateful for cool paddling pools in hot weather. We are grateful for plentiful elderflowers and have made yummy cordial. My beautiful rambling rose, which is more »
I talked earlier in the week about the values I am trying to instill in to my children and this week we have been discussing kindness. Fellow Blogger Suzie at New Day New Lesson has a kindness club, so we have been talking about her weekly initiatives. What is kindness and why it is important? more »
I spent a wonderful day yesterday with my Mum. For the first time since she was in hospital in March we spend the morning pottering round our local shops (yes I took and she filled my shopping trolley). We then came back to themadhouse and spent an afternoon as a family. So I thought a more »