For me there have been times when just getting out of bed have been a struggle. When I have felt like I wanted the world to swallow me up whole and spit me out. I have cried at the injustice of life and asked “why me”?
Why am I the one who suffered the loss of my babies? Why I am the one who’s father died in an industrial accident? Why do have have a higher risk of cancer than others? Why did my mastectomy go wrong and lately why am I all along and why has my mother died?
But the thing is life goes on. It carries on regardless of how I feel or what is happening around me. So I have learned to live. I have learned how to grab the life I have with open arms and breath it all in. To look for the small joys in each day and to live my life, rather than allow life to dictate my moods.
I am a fighter, I have so much to live for. I have a wonderful family, who I adore and love spending time with. I will not allow life to take this away from me. Yes I have been in some very dark, dangerous and downright scary places and my mood has not always been as positive as this, but I took steps to live.
I had cognitive behavioral therapy, I sought the help of professionals and I accepted that there are things in this life that I can never change, no matter how much I try, no matter how much I worry over them. So slowly I am learning to change myself. I am learning that no one is responsible for my happiness but me.
I might be more susceptible to various cancers, but I made hard decisions and I chose that I have been born to live. Life is my passion