I am truly sorry for a lot of reasons, firstly please don’t worry we are all OK.
But also just a little word of warning, a blog is never truly anonymous and there are consequences of writing words sometimes. They seem so innocent, just characters on a keyboard, but my they hold some terrible and terrifying power when you add them all together.
I made a mistake this week, I shouldn’t have posted my Writing Workshop post. I have hurt people I love and that is something that I never ever had any intention of doing. I shouldn’t have aired my dirty washing in public and I will not again. I wrote the piece as a way of outpouring the emotion I was feeling a the time and should have left it at that.
My blog has always felt like my safe haven, somewhere to write down my feelings and emotions, but I never really believed that anyone could or would be hurt by it. I never thought it might get back to people, if I had known that I would have self-censored myself, I wouldn’t have hurt people intentionally and the fact that I have is almost to much to bear.
I have a relationship to try and mend, if that it at all possible and will be doing so over the coming weeks, months and possibly years. I have betrayed the trust and understanding of the person I love the most, my husband and made it very difficult for him and his family, if not impossible.
So I am truly sorry, I didn’t think, I didn’t comprehend the possible outcomes, without the shield of the blog I wouldn’t have said the things I did.
I don’t know what is going to happen moving forward, only time will tell.