This year is the first year that I feel comfortable celebrating Mothers Day without a mother. It is over three years since Mum died and yes I still miss her, but I no longer pine for her company like I used to.
My new normal is actually becoming normal. Now that is a sentence I never thought I would write!
This was one of my Mum’s happiest days (Maxi and my Niece’s christening) – She beamed all day
The thing is I love Mothers Day, for a long time I never thought I would be a mother and now I am it is something that I adore and hate in equal measure. I find it the hardest job in the world, it is either really hard or really great. There is no happy medium in my parenting, no matter how much I wish there was.
Mothers Day is a reminder that many, many women have managed to do this job successfully before me and to also express thanks and gratitude for the women that have shaped me and my family.
We made a Mothers Day card for my mother in law and we might not always see eye to eye but she did a pretty good job raising MadDad!
I never appreciated my mum until I was a mother and I see her in me more and more each passing day and whereas in the past this would have made me shudder and panic, I realised a couple of weeks ago at a family funeral that there were worse people to turn in to.
Mothers day cards 2014
I had this epiphany whilst sat round the table with most of my cousins as we reminisced about our fantastic childhood which we spent together. We are all parents and grandparents now and pretty much are all turning or have turned in to our parents.
So Happy Mothers Day to everyone.