What Makes a Mother?

Do you ever just look at your children and feel a tugging in your chest. A physical sensation of how much they mean to you?
Do you ever just want to hold them to tight, to squeeze the air out of them?
Do you ever want to spend an hour kissing them or stroking their baby-soft skins?
Do you ever tell them how perfect they are in every way possible and how much you love them?
Do you ever wonder who speeded up time now your a parent. How can another year have passed so quicky?
Do you let them know that you like them and enjoy being with them.
Do you ever sit when the house is silent and wonder what life was like before they came along?
Do you ever watch them sleep and wonder what they do in their dreams?

I look at my boys and my oh my, my heart skips a beat.
I look at my boys and get an overwhelming urge to breath in their smells and to lick their delicious skin.
I want to watch them walk around naked as children should, their perfect bums all peachy and adorable.
I enjoy mostly the minutes I spend in my children’s company, they fill me with wonder and awe. I truly like them as people most of the time too.
I watch them as they sleep, the rhythm of their chests rising and falling brings me peace.
I listen as they chat to each other and laugh at their funny little ways.

So this is what it means to be a mother. Happy Mothers day to you all.

But this is also what it means to be a mother. My darling step neice lost her only child due to complications due to his Cerable Paulsy at seven months old and this will be her second mothers day without him, this is what she asked the vicar to read out at his funeral and it has haunted me ever since

What Makes A Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked “What makes a Mother?”
And I know I heard him say
A Mother has a baby
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby’s not with you?

Yes, you can he replied
With confidence in his voice
I give many women babies
When they leave it is not their choice
Some I send for a lifetime
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb
But there’s no need to stay.

I just don’t understand this God
I want my baby here
He took a breath
and cleared his throat
And then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing today
If you could see your child smile
With other children and say
“We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear
My mummy loved me so much
I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a Mum who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mummy set me free.

I miss my Mummy oh so much
But I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep
On her pillow is where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don’t be sad today
I’m your baby and I am here”

So you see my dear sweet one
Your children are okay
Your babies are here in My home
And this is where they’ll stay
They’ll wait for you with Me
Until your lessons are through
And on the day you come home
they’ll be at the gates for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother
It’s the feeling in your heart
It’s the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth
May not realize
Until their time is done
Remember all the love you have
And know that you are
A Special Mum